Tuesday was a milestone for me:I finally let my two kids go after raising them for a decade! That's right, for the first time since they were born, they're not in the house overnight. I've been all by myself since yesterday. It's such a new feeling; I can't really say it's nice since I miss my son terribly after I dreamt of almost losing him at the airport on the day they left for Lombok. I actually cried in my nap and jolted myself out of sleep. I was in tears as I thought about him being miles away from me. Well, he's with his daddy on a trekking expedition with a group. Six days away from mummy at the age of eight-n-a-half, am I proud of my son for that!
As for my older one, I've packed her off to chill with two cousins at her paternal grandma's place, leaving me with loads of opportunities to get 'mischievous'.
That's not true. It's just your imagination! Rest assured I'm still your Mrs-nice-gal-next door. Yesterday was spent with four other ex-college girls for a brunch in town. Evening was spent at the gym, had a Subway sandwich dinner ALONE before heading back. See, no illegal dates.
Being away from each other helps to mend our almost daily bickering and frivolous arguments. She called twice and I'm touched. I miss her too. Familiarity does breed contempt when both are similar in many ways. I don't want any of my kids to hate me even before they grow up. With that, I hope my absence from them makes their hearts long for their mummy.
Being away from hubby and children gives me the chance to find my own space and do things at my own pace and time. For once, I don't hear my own irritating self raising voices at them. For once, I don't have to be a mummy, just Me.
But she's coming home late tonight from my in-law's. I hope there'll be lots to chat about what she did there. I'll ask if she wants to sleep with me in my bedroom tonight. I do want to be nice; be an ideal mother.
We have plans on Friday though. I've a dinner appointment with a friend who isn't feeling that well today. If we can't really meet, it means I'll have to settle my own dinner on a Friday night (so boring). For her, she's off to my mom's for a sleepover. What a nice week for my daughter: no homework and no mother's barking.
Well, I'd like to paint the town red on a Friday night but how to when most of my girlfriends have their own families? Besides, I can't do it alone lest I get picked up. As for asking male friends out, I'm afraid my actions may be misinterpreted so I've ruled out that option. Who knows, maybe I'll just visit a nail salon and get a pedicure. Pamper myself on a Friday night, haha.
'Life Is F*#@ing Short'. A friend sent me this yesterday and I can't agree more. I want to make the most of my one life and enjoy as many new experiences as I can before my expiry date is up. I'm not religious anymore but looking back, life has been kind. Hubby and son will be home this Sunday and I can't wait to hug my little boy!